All phases of life
I told my friend one day that I wish I could be an asshole; that I could just be like the good amount of people who make a good amount of success for themselves while being shit people, just because it looks and sounds a whole lot easier at times. And she’s right in the fact that that’s not what I really want for myself. And when she asked why I would ever think about betraying myself to be that way, I could never really come up with the solid reason of why. But I think I understand now. Sometimes I want to be that way not just because it looks like the easiest thing to do. Sometimes I want to be that way because if I was an asshole who only looked out for myself, at least I would know it and accept it. The thing is I don’t want an easy way out from living life in general. I just want to be an asshole to prevent me from feeling sorry for myself all the time…
(Sigh) you’re ok Michael. You’re ok…
Does it bother anyone else that there are parts of your life you don’t remember? You have done and said things that you don’t even know about anymore. That means you don’t even have the right perception of yourself because you don’t even fully know who you are. However, something that you’ve forgotten about could be a prominent memory in somebody else’s mind. It trips me out.